Syawal 2009

well peeps..

Today will be the last day of fasting. which means tomorrow RAYA!!!!! I'm going to Manjung this 6am in the morning with my cousin and his sweety pie. I should be sleeping right now but i wont because i want to sleep along the way. I dont want to bother them having their sweet own time,hehehe..

At this moment, i just want wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2009 in advance. Maaf zahir & batin. (^_^)

Ramadhan,Tetamu yang dinanti.

Its been a while since my last post. Dah bulan Ramadhan dah pun. Hari ni baru puasa yang pertama and hari kedua Terawih. Happy sangat2!! Ada satu perasaan dalam jiwa yang sangat gembira dan bersyukur sangat2. Gembira dan bersyukur dipanjangkan umur untuk menjalankan ibadat puasa sekali lagi, dapat terawih lagi, dapat menikmati kebaikan di bulan Ramadhan lagi. memang betul lah Ramadhan memang tetamu yang di nanti.

As a revert muslim memang terasa the difference. Dulu pun time puasa macam ni selalu ikut puasa dengan kawan yg muslim. Tapi dulu puasa niat lain. 1.mau kurus. 2.save budget. tapi tak jgk la tercapai niat tu.1.makan banyak time berbuka. 2.pergi bazar Ramadhan,semua mau beli.hehehe. but, after da betul2 muslim baru tahu nikmat puasa. SANGAT2 la berbeza. Rasa nak mengalir airmata sebab sangat bersyukur diberikan hidayah. Nikmat bulan puasa sangat la besar. banyak sangat yang indah2 tapi tak tau nak susun cerita macam mana. Indah sangat!!

1. Sahur
**memang susah nak bangun pagi. Tapi perasaan waktu bersahur best. bila fikir pahala bersahur tu,seteguk air pun cukup lah.

2.berpuasa.
**bila kita betul2 menghayati apa itu puasa, puasa itu memang best. bukan tak makan dan minum jak, tapi betul2 menjaga hati,mata,semua lah. lepas tu, amal ibadah pun nak tambah. sebab yang sunat,pahalanya macam yang wajib.yang wajib pulak 40 kali ganda daripada biasa. sangat best kan. InsyaAllah menjadi amalan di bulan2 yg lain.

3.buka puasa.
**mmg lain buka puasa dulu dan sekarang. Sekarang,berpuasa kerana Allah. Nikmat berbuka memang best. gembira dan bersyukur diberikan kekuatan supaya dapat puasa.

4.Terawih.
**my favourite part. Especially if berjemaah. Sedih if terawih sorang2 di bilik. Dengar imam baca al Fatihah and surah2 al Quran,tersentuh hati. Memang indah sangat ayat2 Al-Quran. sangat2 berharap dapat baca Al-Quran tak lama lagi. InsyaAllah.

banyak lagi yg best di bulan Ramadhan. Minta la keampunan daripada Allah. Minta keredhaan Allah. Semoga kita sentiasa di jalan Allah dan minta dikuatkan iman. Kepada semua muslim, bersyukurlah kepada Allah kerana anda seorang Islam. Bukan semua orang dapat hidayah daripada Allah.Apabila anda membuat sesuatu sentiasa lah kerana Allah.

my Sunday

as im writing this, he is on his way back here..he's only been away to the other side of Malaysia for a week but it was like hell for me. this morning i woke up with tears streaming down my cheeks. that stupid dream.hahaha. I dreamt of him. He was being forced to marry someone else. Thats why it was totally stupid. Blame my emotion and my hormones. Led all my worries into nightmare. In my dream he was going to make me his second wife!!! NIGHTMARE it is. i still can feel the pain. go away!!its just a dream. and tomorrow everything will go back to normal. Go out dating, go for a movie and lepak just as always. except for my sister will be joining us tomorrow. Im going to bring her jalan2 and tengok wayang. baru mau nonton transformer. outdated betul!!i think orang lain dah tengok berulang kali and i baru nak tengok. blame my gaji coz lambat keluar.

Balik ni main kerom lagi.

lalala.

its been a while since my last post..im not that busy but i dont know what to post about. So much different thing happened in my life lately. First and foremost, change in status-i have a full time job and now a part time student. working five days a week, waking up 6.30 in the morning and reach home at 6pm. surprisingly, its easier for me to wake up at 6.30 in the morning to work than at 10 am to class. Hehe. yet i still to worry bout my study. I really want to graduate with santie and my diploma classmates. InsyaAllah.

Another thing, im renting a house. A new thing for me. I am excited and im enjoying it. Im sharing the room with my sister. Its good to have my sister with me. She helps me a lot especially with the cleaning.HAHAHA. Im not bullying her, its just, she likes to do everything. sisters helps each other kan. :)

I miss my friends back in UiTM, but in the same time im not regretting of the choice i've made. I am glad i chose what i want to do. Moving towards a new life doesnt mean to leave and forget the past. Memories will always remain alive. :)

(^.^')

Aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

there.
i dont know where to scream. screaming online can do la.
why did i scream? because..

1.REJECTED.
2.REJECTED.
3.REJECTED.
4.REJECTED.
5.REJECTED.
6.REJECTED.
7.REJECTED.
8.REJECTED.
9.REJECTED.

10.EXAM.

1st -9th are the main reason.
the 10th is just a minor. i do feel the stress now but i still cant get my hands off the lappy.shit! damn!die! cant complaint my feelings to my friends because they have been reminding me to study. my ego asked me not to. i dont want to hear the we-told-you speech.
DAMN!!!!! I HATE THIS FEELING. B**I!!!!
i wont feel as stress as right now about the exam, if not because of that DAMN MAIN REASON.


p/s: maaflah..post ni membawa unsur negatif.

first and second in a day.

i went for my first real job interview today. not one but two interviews. all that i can say, i am EXHAUSTED.

last night i cant sleep. not mainly because of i was nervous for my interview but because of the WAKA-WAKA game in facebook. its a similar version of PACMAN.
well it became interesting when me and my friends started to challenge each other. who will be the greatest waka2 gamer of all. unfortunately, there were only two lappy in the room and since no extra for me i have to wait for my turn. hoping for those waka-waka addicts to have mercy on me. but who will give you the chance when they are addicted to it themselves. zero chance. NADA. no mercy even if you were their bff. i waited until 3 o 'clock and gave up because i had an interview today.

i woke up at 7.30 am to get ready for my interview.got back to hostel around 11 and thats when i received another call for an interview at 2pm. i had my lunch and went straight away to the interview. no rest. finish at 3 and i reached hostel with a hope to redeem my sleep but I CANT SLEEP. my eyes were too tired but i cant sleep.

so now, im sleepless and thats why, instead i post wholly about my interview for today (which i planned earlier), i am writing about something that irrelevant at all. i know i can simply ctrl+A+delete but i wont.

HAPPY READING.

i did it!!

yes..my first time and it wasnt as bad as i imagined. got my haircut and voila the outcome is as u can see in my profile picture. totally different from the picture he found but the moment he saw me..that smile from his face...hmm..that mischievous smile. did i turn him on? hahaha..kidding. its more like a victory-is-in-my-hand smile with sparkling eyes. i am very happy he liked it. he cant stop smiling when he looked at me. his say "beautiful, a woman with a career, independent, different n cute.."..i dont know from where that came from but satisfaction from his face is all i wanted to see and and its positive. his dream came true. for me, mission accomplished.**love is in the air**. i want the cupid angels in the movie 'night at the musuem 2' to sing for me right now, BADLY. jiwang pulak hari ni. as the relationship goes deeper, i hope the love grows stronger too.

a haircut for the weekend. girls, this time its for real.

i first met him when we were working together at KFC. At that time,when we were still friends, i still remember he told me he likes to see girl with short hair. well, he got me and being me, i am a girl who are very fond of her long wavy hair. After about 3 years of relationship, i have decided to make his dream come true. it is not easy for me you know to come up with that decision. I have to step out from my comfort zone. I never cut my hair above my shoulder. never in my life. i have a round face, thats the main reason. to cut my hair shorter means rounder face. HAHAHAHA. but,bila lagi nak rambut pendek kan? nak tunggu muka jadi bujur tak boleh coz muka saya memang bulat. He even searched for this.
What do you think? I love it but I love him more. So wish me luck. There will be no turning back. I know of course my hair wont be perfectly like this but I am just hoping it will turns out to be just fine. That is all i ever want.**sweats**.heeeeeeeeeeeeee......... (^_^).


p/s: thanks to those yang dengan setianya menunggu. i know korang pun dah penat tunggu.hehehe.

stupid me.

BETRAYAL IS NOT NICE,
STUPIDITY THAT COMES FROM LIES.

BETRAYED ME AND MY HEARTS BLEED.
AS U LIED THROUGH YOUR TEETH.

LIE TO ME I WONT CARE.
IF U ALONE THE ONLY THAT AWARE.

STUPIDITY IS WHAT I AM.
AS MY FRIENDS KNOW MY SHAME.

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY FRIEND.
but MY TRUST YOU NEED TO REGAIN.

Happy Mother's Day.

not today but yesterday of course..
i think it was the happiest mother's Day my mom ever had.

my eldest brother came to see her at work yesterday. He looked sick and weak. My mother was very worried of his condition and asked him whats wrong. but, suprisingly my brother was pretending and 'SURPRISE!!' he said..'HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MAMI'. he gave my mom a handbag. my mom hugged him. i know how my mom love my brother despite all the unintended things he had done. i am sure the handbag wont be the reason mami wont forget yesterday's.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to my dearest beloved mother, ROSA TARAYCO.