Monday, July 25, 2011

Ramadhan.

Assalamualaikum.

I pray to Allah to give me strength. I am a sinful person and i want to be in Your righteous way and get near to You. I pray this Ramadhan will bring a lot of blessings for me and for all of you too.I am always grateful to Allah swt for giving me the nur and always be there for me. Give me strength i pray. Sesungguhnya Allah swt itu Maha Pengampun lagi MahaPenyayang tetapi jangan sekali kali kita menggunakan alasan itu untuk terus berdosa dan bertaubat berkali - kali. Reminder for myself and for you, readers.

Setulus Cinta Nabi Muhammad


Tell me on how you feel when you read this. 

Pagi itu, walaupun langit telah mulai menguning, burung-burung gurun enggan mengepakkan sayap, Rasulullah s.a.w. dengan suara terbatas memberikan kutbah.
"Wahai umatku, kita semua berada dalam kekuasaan Allah dan cinta kasih-Nya. Maka taati dan bertakwalah kepada-Nya. Kuwariskan dua perkara pada kalian, Al-Quran dan sunnahku. Barang siapa mencintai sunnahku, bererti mencintai aku dan kelak orang-orang yang mencintaiku, akan masuk syurga bersama-sama aku."
Khutbah singkat itu diakhiri dengan pandangan mata Rasulullah yang tenang dan penuh minat menatap sahabatnya satu persatu. Abu Bakar menatap mata itu dengan berkaca-kaca, Umar dadanya naik turun menahan nafas dan tangisnya. Usman menghela nafas panjang dan Ali menundukkan kepalanya dalam-dalam. Isyarat itu telah datang, saatnya sudah tiba.
"Rasulullah akan meninggalkan kita semua," keluh hati semua sahabat kala itu.
Manusia tercinta itu, hampir selesai menunaikan tugasnya di dunia. Tanda-tanda itu semakin kuat, tatkala Ali dan Fadhal dengan cergas menangkap Rasulullah yang berkeadaan lemah dan goyah ketika turun dari mimbar. Disaat itu, kalau mampu, seluruh sahabat yang hadir di sana pasti akan menahan detik-detik berlalu.
Matahari kian tinggi, tapi pintu rumah Rasulullah masih tertutup. Sedang di dalamnya, Rasulullah sedang terbaring lemah dengan keningnya yang berkeringat dan membasahi pelepah kurma yang menjadi alas tidurnya.
Tiba-tiba dari luar pintu terdengar seorang yang berseru mengucapkan salam. "Bolehkah saya masuk?" tanyanya.
Tetapi Fatimah tidak mengizinkannya masuk. "Maafkanlah, ayahku sedang demam," kata Fatimah yang membalikkan badan dan menutup pintu.
Kemudian ia kembali menemani ayahnya yang ternyata sudah membuka mata dan bertanya pada Fatimah, "Siapakah itu wahai anakku?"
"Tak tahulah ayahku, orang sepertinya baru sekali ini aku melihatnya," tutur Fatimah lembut. Lalu, Rasulullah menatap puterinya itu dengan pandangan yang menggetarkan. Seolah-olah bahagian demi bahagian wajah anaknya itu hendak dikenang.
"Ketahuilah, dialah yang menghapuskan kenikmatan sementara, dialah yang memisahkan pertemuan di dunia. Dialah malaikatul maut," kata Rasulullah,
Fatimah pun menahan ledakkan tangisnya. Malaikat maut datang menghampiri, tapi Rasulullah menanyakan kenapa Jibril tidak ikut sama menyertainya. Kemudian dipanggil Jibril yang sebelumnya sudah bersiap di atas langit dunia menyambut ruh kekasih Allah dan penghulu dunia ini.
"Jibril, jelaskan apa hakku nanti di hadapan Allah?" Tanya Rasululllah dengan suara yang amat lemah.
"Pintu-pintu langit telah terbuka, para malaikat telah menanti ruhmu. Semua syurga terbuka lebar menanti kedatanganmu," kata Jibril.
Tapi itu ternyata tidak membuatkan Rasulullah lega,matanya masih penuh kecemasan.
"Engkau tidak senang mendengar khabar ini?" Tanya Jibril lagi.
"Khabarkan kepadaku bagaimana nasib umatku kelak?"
"Jangan risau, wahai Rasul Allah, aku pernah mendengar Allah berfirman kepadaku: "Kuharamkan syurga bagi siapa saja, kecuali umat Muhammad telah berada di dalamnya," kata Jibril.
Detik-detik semakin dekat, saatnya Izrail melakukan tugas. Perlahan-lahan ruh Rasulullah ditarik. Seluruh tubuh Rasulullah bersimbah peluh, urat-urat lehernya menegang.
"Jibril, betapa sakit sakaratul maut ini." Perlahan Rasulullah mengadu. Fatimah terpejam. Ali yang di sampingnya menunduk semakin dalam dan Jibril memalingkan muka.
"Jijikkah kau melihatku, hingga kau palingkan wajahmu Jibril?" Tanya Rasulullah pada Malaikat pengantar wahyu itu.
"Siapakah yang sanggup, melihat kekasih Allah direnggut ajal," kata Jibril.
Sebentar kemudian terdengar Rasulullah memekik, kerana sakit yang tidak tertahankan lagi.
"Ya Allah, dahsyat sungguh maut ini, timpakan saja semua siksa maut ini kepadaku, jangan pada umatku."
Badan Rasulullah mulai dingin, kaki dan dadanya sudah tidak bergerak lagi. Bibirnya bergetar seakan hendak membisikkan sesuatu. Ali segera mendekatkan telinganya.
"Uushiikum bis shalati, wa maa malakat aimanuku (peliharalah solat dan peliharalah orang-orang lemah di antaramu.)"
Di luar pintu tangis mulai terdengar bersahutan, sahabat saling berpelukan. Fatimah menutupkan tangan di wajahnya, dan Ali kembali mendekatkan telinganya ke bibir Rasulullah yang mulai kebiruan.
"Ummatii, ummatii, ummatiii.. (Umatku, umatku, umatku).."
Dan, berakhirlah hidup manusia mulia yang memberi sinaran itu.
Kini, mampukah kita mencintai seperti Baginda mencintai kita? Betapa cintanya Rasulullah kepada kita.
Sahabat-sahabat muslim sekalian, marilah kita renungkan kembali pengorbanan Rasulullah kepada umatnya, betapanya cintanya Rasulullah kepada umatnya agar timbul kesedaran untuk mencintai Allah dan Rasul-Nya, seperti Allah dan Rasulnya mencintai kita. Kerana sesungguhnya selain daripada itu hanyalah fana belaka.
Pernahkah kita menangis untuk Rasulullah s.a.w? Sedangkan di akhir hayat baginda menangis kerana kita. Renungkanlah...



Monday, June 20, 2011

Puasa ganti.

Im on my way home from work. Its Monday and i wasnt planning to stay late in the office. I wanna berbuka at home. The train is pack as ussual and im used of standing on the train for the 45 mins journey.

I can see a huge black smoke from petaling station. I think there is a fire over there. whatever it is,i wish everything is fine.im sure it will be in the news tonight.*iklan*

Im fasting n including today i have 6 days to go. I hope i can finish it all by next week.im not sure what shud i have 4 berbuka but im going to dine outside thats for sure. To those who are fasting today, selamat berbuka!!

P/s: im not the only one who thinks that way about you. As humans,we r not always the best. Acknowledge the best of u without highlighting the worst of others. Life is not fair if only there is nothing we can do about it.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Im back!!

Assalamualaikum peeps!!

Im back! I may not have a regular reader since ive been on and off from blogging but i know i will return someday because still i feel blogging is one way for me to release those things that i cant outside the virtual world. Life so far may not in the order ive wanted it to be,but its still great and i just pray Allah will always bless this sinful person with hidayah for me to get back to Allah's way everytime i am lost. Allah never leaves us,thats for sure.

Thats all for tonite and i am looking forward for tomorrow. Back to work after a week study leave. Till then,good night peeps! Allah bless us all.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Fat rice.

Its the last Saturday for OCtober 2010. Its not like im going to do something out of the ordinary today.

Ordinary Saturday, with me eating my favourite nasi lemak in Shah Alam. I used to have it for breakfast on weekdays at my old office but now since i work in KL, saturday is my only chance to have it. They are close on Sundays. Seriously, the best nasi lemak i found here. Perfectly delicious for my taste buds. The rice is steamed just nice, and the sambal,the best part of the nasi lemak, is not sweet, like most of nasi lemak in Selangor, and the smell is sooooo hauntingly good. Credits to Indra for introducing me to the hot nasi lemak.

I never had enough of it.TERBAIK!


Thursday, October 28, 2010

Worklife.

Its been a while since my last post.  Yup, I admit I am not a consistent blogger and I am sure the percentage of people reading my blog is less than 1% or might also be 0%.  It doesn’t really matter . I always keep my feelings inside especially the negative ones and I know it is not healthy. It can eat you up alive. So, one way for me to erase all the bad feelings inside of me is to blog. Its kind of a therapy to  me. *hope I didn’t sound like Im having mental illness*.nope.
It’s a bit on how ive been doing lately. Still has not finish ACCA and still not taking exam this semester. However, I have a new job and and yes im no longer working in IDS. This one is located in the heart of KL. If you are wondering why I chose to work in a stressful place, well me myself not sure. Its simpler to say it this way, I am bored with my previous job and  young people always  hunger for more  experience and exciting things, I switched job with hopes that the new workplace will be more exciting and fun which in the end I found out that, since my job scope is no different from the lst one, well nothing change drastically. Still doing the same thing but adapting is a lot easier because u’re no longer a freshie.  You are able to work indepently without your superior to guide you 100%. You’ll be surprised of how much you actually know. 
The company im working with is a very well known company in Malaysia.  But it isn’t the big name that attracts me but as I have said, I expect  more growing opportunity and better royalty of course.  Merely because, its not my dream job and for now I wanna gain experience as much as I can and surviving life with the money I have whilst waiting myself to finish ACCA which I don’t know when. (^.^).  Life gotta move on eventhough u r not in right track of ur life plan. A man got a family to take care of.  Wherever life drags u, it happens for a reason. Allah knows whats best for each one of us. You just plan and let Allah handles it. Believe me, u’ll be safe. Even the birds in the sky have no worries and why do you have to?
Enough for today. Hopefully there will be a lot of life talk from me with the easy internet access. Thanks to you, sis!
Logging out and back to work. oh yeah, did i mention, my boss is fierce and unpredictable like the weather. She can be bright and shiny in one second and suddenly dark and gloomy. but,its nothing like i cant handle. ;p

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Me again. :)

I want to throw away all the negativity in my life. I realised i responsed all the negativity surrounding me with negativity. When i hate the way people treating me i will treat them the same way they treated me so they will feel exactly what i felt. And this of course slowly changed myself to be that person i dislike. I wanna be me again. A happy go lucky girl who always think the good thing about people. To be less criticising and to be more understanding. Not to take things seriously and always think the good reasons for whatever that happens. To do things sincerely. Then, i will be less stressful and young forever. :). But one thing the most important thing in life is that never forget ur Creator. I always find peace in Him. Solat really helps when im in stress. The peace is undefinable.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Training.

I am having training since Monday and it will goes on until next Monday. My company will be using a new system starting June 2010. Since I am doing GL(General ledger) so i am in the list for all days of training which will include Accounts Payable and Accounts receivable and other areas that contributes to the completion of the Financial Statement at the end of the day.

I am excited eventhough i expected it to be very boring. Excited because this is my first real job training and boring because i will listen to the trainer talking in front and therefore will involve a lot of yawning from me.

Gladly, the boring part is totally not as what as i expected. The training gives me a lot of useful input. Since i dont have a proper training since i joined the company, this training really gives me more picture of how this company works. :) Plus, this training also includes my superior and therefore one thing i learned, they are also having the trouble to understand some things just like me. i never thought that they will be asking questions same as mine. Well, of course that boosts up my confidence level in a way that, if you dont know, just ask. Moreover, i get to mingle around with them.

Today is the 3rd day and i hope the remaining days will be a mind opener to me. My brain seriously need to be refreshed of some accounting issue.






Saturday, May 8, 2010

Syurga Di Bawah Kaki Ibu.

A mother serves her sugar with
A bit of peppermint
To clarify the passages
That carry what she meant
When she first set to bear a soul
Quite separate from her own,
Whom she would cherish, yet must teach
To live and die alone.



I miss my Mom very badly. *sobs*

Monday, May 3, 2010

Our so called Mini Family Day

Last Saturday Comforter Biru and I went out jalan-jalan as we always do every weekend. But this time its a bit different. he brought his 9 yrs old lil sister and i brought my sister and youngest brother along. I pictured it to be started at 10 am but instead Comforter Biru wanted to go in the evening. Well, i got pissed off and seriously i cried on my bed and refused to get up from the bed until it was like 3pm i think. I was wondering myself why i was so sad. yeah it seemed like a small matter but my heart was so hurted i didnt know why. I just got my period last week and i dont think its a Post Menstrual Syptom, not sure if that exist. Okay enough with the emotional part.

We had our movie, Iron Man 2. Great movie. The lil sister cant wait to go out. Well her brother said she is flexible, can watch any movie despite of her young age. yeah right. Hehehehehe. But before the movie started i bought myself a brown checkered bucket bag. Thats why i wanted to have our family day at the curve, i was looking for that bag. After the movie, we went to Ikea to have meatballs. been craving for it for so long. All of us had fun and that is including me i think, eventhough i kept telling Comforter Biru that it should have been better if we got there earlier.

In the end, he still trying his best to make me happy . Thats why the sparks never end.