Mukadimah?

Its been a year of me blogging and yes i am not that active. I think i wrote less than 20 posts last year. Not that i will write more this year. heh! :)

The reason why i started blogging at the first place was because i wanted it to be my personal journal. I am a person who keep everything, almost , inside me and most of them are not so good. I realised that all the negative things that i keep inside of me will eventually become flesh and that is seriously not healthy. That's why i created this blog. I want to throw everything here. I can scream(literally) and just let it go here without hurting the person involved. well, sometimes there are things that i cant stand with someone i know and i dont want to hurt them. some of us were born brave to have the guts to be straight forward even it hurts others and even if its true. But unfortunately, i am not. I always put myself in their shoes. That is one of my weaknesses in life and im trying to make it my strength.

However,this blog is not all about negativity. Of course, i will write the happy things that happens in my life and whatever i have encountered in life, provided i am in the mood for writing. Life is a learning process that will never stop. I am grateful for all the hardship in life because it makes me stronger and a better person. :)

Its like im starting my blog all over again. :P

Latest update:

I moved to a new place. Im renting a house with my sister and my 16 yrs old brother,not forgetting santut and lulubelle. im still working at IDS as an accounts exec(boring) and still havent finish ACCA but im going to take the last exam this semester. Hopefully i will pass so i can switch job to be in the audit firm. I reeeewwwllyy want to. my comforter-biru works just one blocks away from me, but he is waiting for Toyota. He already got the offer but subjected to his medical report. My big brother got married last month and my second sister will give birth anytime.*super excited*.Muhammad Amirul Hafzan,what a beautiful name. I pray that she will give birth easily and everything will be fine.

Its Chinese New Year Holidae and only four days off but i want mooooore. Four days arent enough. I want more. Tomorrow is last day...URRRGGGGHHHH!!!! Why cant i just stay at home and enjoy the laziness....???!!! because money doesnt fall from the sky..heeeeeeeeeeee. :D. Hard work baby(self motivation).

Love my life and God, make me a better person.

Hypocrite.

Whatever that means to you, i believe each of everyone of us have that hypocracy in our soul. What measures how bad it is, is how much it affects negatively on people around you. As for me, I dare to say that i am a hypocrite. I dont know about you if you want to deny it. But sometimes we have to be hypocrite when you dont want to hurt other people's feelings or you dont want to make things worse for you and your friend. Does that makes you bad?

How far that hypocracy influence your life?

How bad hypocracy will change you?

Time will tell.

Keep smiling eventhough deep down you are cursing. :)

Pedas Terlebih Asem.

Just finish dinner. Ikan asam pedas, terung+telur and fried chicken.
I cooked the asam pedas for the first time based on the menu i took from the internet. One thing why the internet is so useful. It gives people who is a cook dummy like me learn how to cook. It was my first trial and not to overjudge myself, but not bad lah for a first timer like me.its just asam pedasnya terlebih asam. I love asam pedas. Thats why l want to learn on how to cook asam pedas.

But i really want to learn how to cook Nasi Kuning from my future mummy in law. Orang melayu cakap, kalau mau memikat anak lelakinya, pikat melalui perutnya.hik2.

Maligayang Kaarawan to REINA aka BALQIS aka DAT2 aka MEEEEEE!!!!

Allah selamatkan saya..
Allah selamatkan saya..
Allah selamatkan REINA aka BALQIS aka DAT2 aka MEEEEEE..
Allah selamatkan saya..

Thanks for singing the song for me..Hehehehe...

Im 23 years old.
My achievement so far...hmmmm...:
1. Im working.
2. Im doing ACCA
3. Im able to give my parents $$ monthly

A lot of my dream list still not yet achieved.
1. still fat, not yet 48kg.
2. to own a car (coming soon)
3. byk lagi..tau lah manusia..mana pandai nak puas.

What did i get myself for my birthday?
1. Rebonding
2. thats all, no budget..

What my bf gave me for my birthday? He bought sate+nasi himpit+a bottle of pepsi for my birthday party of four, me,him,mu sis n cousin. of course i got the birthday song. the present?
He gave me two options and i have to choose between apple or blackberry (as if):
a) buy my own birthday prezzie, or
b) go to Sunway Lagoon with him of course...

And i choose blackberry but i also want the apple.

again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!
..yet there is still a lot awaits in the future.

Saturday is a day full of laziness...:)

WARNING : this schedule was only meant for me and no intention to influence people towards
laziness.

6.00 am : wake up

6.10 am : on lappy and layan Waka-waka in FB

8.3o am : went back to sleep

9.30 am : shower

9.45 am : waka-waka AGAIN.

9.55 am : went to 7e and stop by to buy breakfast...bought nasi lemak+donut+cekodok nangka

10.15 am : breakfast wit juk2(the cousin)

10.30 am : FB + waka-waka AGAIN.

12.30 pm : lunch..milo+cekodok nangka+donut..sambil2 tengok Hindustan tv2 yg tiada subtitle.

1.35 pm : currently...curik lappy jap fr my sis, tgok FB jap and writing blog

now : logging off to do house cleaning.
(padahal my sister dah naik tanduk..its her turn to use the lappy..hehehehe)

P=Probation/Percubaan..or is it Perlahan??

I passed.

Gabra tahap dewa.

Tapi pass jugak. But the test wasnt a big deal.

The biggest challenge is to take the wheel on the road.

God please,please...

Biarlah perlahan, as long as i dont hit other car.

=).

Test.

Tomorrow I am not working. I have driving test. Yup, at the age 0f 22 insyaAllah i will have my license(if i pass tomorrow).

I hope i wont be nervous tomorrow. It does contributes a lot to the road of failure.


I want to pass.

I just want to pass.

Then, the BF can say this to me:




God, help me. :)

P.E.N.G.O.T.O.R.

very dheran with people like this. if pengotor only mess up their place, i dont care. why the hell i should?! tapi rumah pun tak pandai nak kemas, haram nak tengok dorang sapu rumah. Its been 6 mths staying with her, but no improvement at all. We all da kemas but without shame and respect,put her things all over the place again. IF TAK MAU TOLONG KEMAS RUMAH,TOLONG JANGAN SUSAHKAN ORANG LAIN BOLEH TAK?!

lepas masak, tolong la lap2 stove tu..makanan yg dah lama dlm peti sejuk tu,tlglaaaaaa kuarkan.berbau tau peti sejuk I.

aku ni pun pengotor jgk,tapi tak la sampai nak biarkan rumah berhabuk and berminyak sana-sini.

please la..
Jangan harapkan muka cantik tapi rumah macam tongkang pecah.

p/s : if la ditakdirkan org yg sewaktu dengannya membca post ini, maaf kan lah saya. lubuk hati saya dah tak tahan. harap2 anda dpt berubah k. Amin.

Syawal 2009

well peeps..

Today will be the last day of fasting. which means tomorrow RAYA!!!!! I'm going to Manjung this 6am in the morning with my cousin and his sweety pie. I should be sleeping right now but i wont because i want to sleep along the way. I dont want to bother them having their sweet own time,hehehe..

At this moment, i just want wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2009 in advance. Maaf zahir & batin. (^_^)

Ramadhan,Tetamu yang dinanti.

Its been a while since my last post. Dah bulan Ramadhan dah pun. Hari ni baru puasa yang pertama and hari kedua Terawih. Happy sangat2!! Ada satu perasaan dalam jiwa yang sangat gembira dan bersyukur sangat2. Gembira dan bersyukur dipanjangkan umur untuk menjalankan ibadat puasa sekali lagi, dapat terawih lagi, dapat menikmati kebaikan di bulan Ramadhan lagi. memang betul lah Ramadhan memang tetamu yang di nanti.

As a revert muslim memang terasa the difference. Dulu pun time puasa macam ni selalu ikut puasa dengan kawan yg muslim. Tapi dulu puasa niat lain. 1.mau kurus. 2.save budget. tapi tak jgk la tercapai niat tu.1.makan banyak time berbuka. 2.pergi bazar Ramadhan,semua mau beli.hehehe. but, after da betul2 muslim baru tahu nikmat puasa. SANGAT2 la berbeza. Rasa nak mengalir airmata sebab sangat bersyukur diberikan hidayah. Nikmat bulan puasa sangat la besar. banyak sangat yang indah2 tapi tak tau nak susun cerita macam mana. Indah sangat!!

1. Sahur
**memang susah nak bangun pagi. Tapi perasaan waktu bersahur best. bila fikir pahala bersahur tu,seteguk air pun cukup lah.

2.berpuasa.
**bila kita betul2 menghayati apa itu puasa, puasa itu memang best. bukan tak makan dan minum jak, tapi betul2 menjaga hati,mata,semua lah. lepas tu, amal ibadah pun nak tambah. sebab yang sunat,pahalanya macam yang wajib.yang wajib pulak 40 kali ganda daripada biasa. sangat best kan. InsyaAllah menjadi amalan di bulan2 yg lain.

3.buka puasa.
**mmg lain buka puasa dulu dan sekarang. Sekarang,berpuasa kerana Allah. Nikmat berbuka memang best. gembira dan bersyukur diberikan kekuatan supaya dapat puasa.

4.Terawih.
**my favourite part. Especially if berjemaah. Sedih if terawih sorang2 di bilik. Dengar imam baca al Fatihah and surah2 al Quran,tersentuh hati. Memang indah sangat ayat2 Al-Quran. sangat2 berharap dapat baca Al-Quran tak lama lagi. InsyaAllah.

banyak lagi yg best di bulan Ramadhan. Minta la keampunan daripada Allah. Minta keredhaan Allah. Semoga kita sentiasa di jalan Allah dan minta dikuatkan iman. Kepada semua muslim, bersyukurlah kepada Allah kerana anda seorang Islam. Bukan semua orang dapat hidayah daripada Allah.Apabila anda membuat sesuatu sentiasa lah kerana Allah.